Wednesday, June 3, 2020

My heart breaks for the state of the country

I had to deactivate my instagram--such sad news everywhere and surprisingly...people being so self righteous, pushing others that their thoughts are wrong and that THIS or THAT is the correct way of thinking.  I was so astounded and incredulous.  People trying to outdo each other in "what they know" and demeaning others that they are thinking is incorrect.

Some would say how horrible the looting is, others would say those looting is nothing compared to what the government loots the people.  WOW.

Some would say how bad they feel for those mom and pop shops (mostly run by immigrants), others would say that those people are privileged and do not know the pain of black americans.  I was at LOSS for words.

people saying...
"Black lives > Target"
--Of course!  Any life is worth more than a mere business!  If people believe that those innocent black people did not deserve such consequence, they are not applying the same belief through and through......but what did Target do to deserve this?  what did the employees do to feel such fear and have more days of no income to support whatever background their family is in?
"People should have expected violence and it is righteous violence due to the continuous injustice toward blacks."
--I understand but I will have to disagree...not like this...not like this...
"The looters are white supremecists"
--no...if you look at surveillence tapes--they're not!  They're immature young kids of multi ethnic backgrounds and various financial backgrounds
Protesters saying "Eff the police!"
--but there are those who protect us and risk their lives with loving families...

My heart just breaks...I understand where all these people are coming from...but I can't help to think...

Romans 12:9-21 Marks of the True Christian
let LOVE BE GENIUNE
ABHOR WHAT IS EVIL
HOLD FAST TO WHAT IS GOOD
love one another with brotherly affection
OUTDO ONE ANOTHER IN SHOWING HONOR.
do not be slothful in zeal
be fervent in spirit
serve the Lord
rejoice in hope
BE PATIENT IN TRIBULATION
BE CONSTANT IN PRAYER
contribute to the needs of the saints
seek to show hospitality
bless those who persecute you
bless and do not curse them
rejoice with those who rejoice
WEEP WITH THOSE WHO WEEP
LIVE IN HARMONY WITH ONE ANOTHER
DO NOT BE HAUGHTY
but associate with the lowly
NEVER BE WISE IN YOUR OWN SIGHT
REPAY NO ONE EVIL FOR EVIL
BUT GIVE THOUGHT TO DO WHAT IS HONORABLE IN THE SIGHT OF ALL
if possible, so far as IT DEPENDS ON YOU,
LIVE PEACEABLY WITH ALL
beloved,
NEVER AVENGE YOURSELVES
but leave it to the wrath of God,
for it is written, "vengeance is mine, I WILL REPAY," says the Lord
to the contrary, "if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink;
for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head."
DO NOT BE OVERCOME BY EVIL
BUT OVERCOME EVIL WITH GOOD.

I am not saying we should be passive with the movement to protect our black brothers and sisters, but really need a better, higher and humble attitude that straight up anger and self-praising righteousness.  Lord please heal this country and those who have such a wounded heart.  Please open the heart of the government and police to see how our black brothers and sisters are so unjustly targeted.  You hate racism, you abhor evil.  You are a God of wrath and you are a God of justice.  We need your protection, we need your wisdom to how to better protect our fellow friends and let the hurt be known of our black brothers and sisters in a more effective way.  Let fingers not be pointed...let there be unity...Let us not be weary in doing good...As one part of the body hurts, the rest of the body hurts for that part.  Lord, how we need you.


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