Passing thought

Alex reminded me the other day, how he was surprised when I told him (this was during our early dating stage) that I wanted us to go through something very difficult because we know how to overcome things together and make our relationship stronger--perhaps going through a desert or missions together. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA.

Obnoxious laugh, but truly.  WHAT A FUNNY PERSON I WAS.

The past three years was an indescribably hot crucible that refined us and burned off the ugly dross to make the relationship between us and GOD stronger.  I felt as though God really took my words into serious consideration and thought it was an opportune time to drop in hardship to know Him and rely on Him more.

God has a sense of humor.
Just like the time I was bawling that my dad was underestimating my career abilities by suggesting me to become an optometrist instead of a medical doctor.
Just like the time I haughtily said that Korean men were no good and that I'd marry someone Chinese or Taiwanese.
Just like the time I made a promise to myself that I never wanted to marry someone in the same health field as me, but someone who can contribute to the marriage with something I did not know like financial savviness or engineering abilities.

I must be careful of what I say.  I keep saying I want a daughter, I should start saying I want a son.

Still blogging

We are more settled in now.  Everything arrived and more things were purchased.  Spent well over $5k within the past month because we were eating out, buying more furniture/home goods, paying rent, getting malpractice insurance and some splurging on my birthday.

I caught a cold the night before my birthday--I hadn't had good sleep for the past month and it was really really cold in HMart!  My face was hot and my body couldn't really tell if it was hot or cold.  I took a really hot bath and drained out all my congestion for a good 20 minutes.  It came back when I was sweating from the heat and wanted some cool air.

Sunday was nice, we went to visit Onnuri which was a very small EM service with much younger folks (ie. college - young young adults).  Alex and I were the oldest couple there haha.  Wondering if God desires us to help guide the younger folk... we are praying about it.  I am uncertain if we should be choosing a PCA established church or see where-ever God plants us.  Like our beloved Mrs. Oh said, "We are PKPC missionaries." :)

I had several nice desserts from Dominique Ansel, Laudree and Sprinkles to celebrate my birthday despite sniveling and barely tasting the goods :) Luckily, Alex had treated me to an early birthday with a very delicious and best omakase experience I've ever had about a week before (when I could taste things properly and my nose was not plugged!).

Much errands to do, still, but a lot of my hobbies are coming into fruition.  My thoughts on having children is still on a balance beam--wondering if I am still too immature or selfish to give my entire being to a little one.  Alex recommended me to spend this year, while he was training in fellowship, to really pursue my drawing endeavors.  Sarah bought me a sewing machine because I always wanted to make clothes. Alex bought me three large canvas' to paint, and several of my friends encouraged me to really make "Strawings" into a full time thing.  Looking through instagram really disables me from drawing more--there are just so many talented people, and the things I want to do, people have already done.  Alex repeatedly told me to get off of social media and just draw, paint, create...practice practice...

It's hard to get off of social media because I still want to know how my friends are doing, what is going on in this world these days, good deals that are going on--and to be honest, a bit of FOMO (ugh how embarrassing)? I do like the idea very much from unplugging--much more things I can be doing, thinking that are of my own...hmm.